A New Start
So I decided to bring my blog back – my life is about to get really busy and complicated, and I want to be able to write about it in a longform fashion. In reading my old posts, I was debating whether to republish them and decided it was how I felt at the time and that's worth something. But I wanted to provide context for what's happened in the meantime, how I'm doing, and how my feelings on some of those things have developed.
The biggest medical update is that I did in fact have Facial Feminization Surgery in April 2024, and Gender Nullification Surgery in August 2024. Both went very smoothly, and I'm really happy with the results – I have plans to write more about my experiences with nullification soon.
I was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder in March of this year and have been doing lots of work and research to learn and explore this part of myself. If you want to learn more about this, I actually made an entire website about it. My DID has really complicated and muddied my feelings about gender, style, and my body itself.
I've spent the last three weeks in a full-time outpatient mental healthcare program after a serious dissociative event left me unsure of my ability to care for myself and remain safe. Unfortunately, I experienced sexual assault in my free time outside of the program that has been re-traumatizing and undone much of the progress the program provided.
The political situation has also dramatically affected my life. Existing as a transsexual person in the U.S. has gotten much more difficult than when I vented about it here last, and my wife and I are moving out of the country this fall to get away from it all. This also means I'm giving up my dream of being a therapist, at least for now. There's not a super concrete path to it right now, and other things have taken priority.
I think that's all of the big updates about me? As always, I am terminally online on Bluesky if you want to know more about my day-to-day shenanigans. I want to write actual things now, but it felt weird to just show back up without context of what's going on in my life?
- before this i wrote: A New Path
- after this i wrote: On Finishing Outpatient Care