i know "i bought AirPods Pro and it's enabled me to manage my sensory overwhelm so much better that I am more productive than i've been in a long time" feels a little dramatic, but like, it's true!
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small posts and threadstired of having to uproot my entire life repeatedly to go somewhere safer.
i suppose it’s my fault for ever moving back home, but like, heaven forbid i want to live where i’m from. i do actually like it here a lot.
we really ruined online communication when we moved beyond “email me and i’ll respond whenever the fuck i feel like it”
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everything feels so damn existential lately i am exhausted
how is anyone managing to keep up with basic household tasks right now, much less a job, friendships, hobbies, long-term planning?
i’m just stuck in perpetual despair.
there is like a 30% chance i am jumpscared by my own naked body any time i open a random app and it's getting annoying lmfao
okay now that my heart health is squared away, time for our regularly scheduled despair over not having people in my life that genuinely love and accept me and instead judge and shame me into who they want me to be
i spent today in the ER (I’m okay! Just being very cautious about a suspect EKG) and god it was exhausting being repeatedly asked for my pronouns, and misgendered anyway.
My primary care doctor who literally only sees trans patients called me “himself” in clinical notes today.
Fuck.
it’s honestly remarkable how i’ve managed to never have a single person in my life who can just accept me for who i am and i’m always having to minimize or hide parts of myself in order to be acceptable
“doing well” and “taking care of yourself” are too much work i would like to lay in bed and be stoned and depressed and rot thank you
i cried more today than i have in so many years. i am physically exhausted and dehydrated from sobbing.
getting grindr ads for my bottom surgeon is always a weird experience 🤭
whoever in my brain has decided we’re having nightmares about losing HRT needs to fucking stop 🫠