we had to make a rule about using the system’s name on food orders because twice now i’ve put Zari and Ethan ended up fronting while they called out my name and he didn’t recognize it 🤭
we all respond at least somewhat to “Skylar” since our brain has heard it for a decade now, so it works.
if we had a dollar for every time someone told us "there's no public EV charging near me" and i could FROM MEMORY tell them a charger within a few miles, i'd have a shocking number of dollars at this point!! people just don't notice them!
🖤 going without monitors and peripherals in order to charge my vape using my usb-c dock because i'm too lazy to get up and get a normal charger
thirty nine days, we can make it thirty nine days right? right?? fuck.
made a document that's like "people on the internet have made you doubt your plurality again, here's why your clinicians and you agree that it's the case" to try to spiral a little bit less about the whole thing
we can tell we're getting older because every year we get a teeny bit more "why do they have to redesign everything all the time" where we used to enjoy the change
yes we did install the new Apple betas on all our devices day one, why do you ask (iPadOS 26 is very good though)
🖤 some of our struggling to accept having DID, or like embracing it as a good or neutral part of who we are is because it’s a result of us enduring just horrendous things a child never should.
Our brain literally broke itself because we were abused, and now we’re supposed to be thankful for it??
🖤 we wish we could explain to our family what they did, why it hurt so much. but they’re genuinely like, too stupid to process it.
how the fuck we came from that family is genuinely very confusing at times. public education, folks, it’s good!
each of us is a wound taken by our brain and made into the shape of a person we wish we could've been
being mentally ill is really cool and fun 👍🏼 you will never regret having 5-7 people in your head ☺️
reading journal entries from just a few months ago and it's shocking both how accurate our initial instincts of our system composition were, and how much we've grown and changed and learned to communicate and cooperate in that time
also the tone of "what if we're plural??" is hilarious
Just had an original Hue bulb fail that we bought in like, 2014-2015? Impressive lifespan, given how much we leave our lights on.
sometimes we'd like to sit down with the first psychiatrist we ever met with back when we lived in San Francisco and scream "LOOK AT THIS LIST OF DIAGNOSES!!! LOOK!!"
he said we did not have ADHD and had "no signs of depression" and uh... that's the really boring part of what's going on up here
sort of wild that we had three gender-affirming surgeries without spending a single night in a hospital lol
we have never once managed to get Personal Voice to actually transfer across Apple devices and have to set it up each time and the fact it's not consistent is troublesome to our brain
gender affirming sensory deprivation tank is this anything
our kingdom for an alter that's a mature, well-adjusted, minimally-traumatized adult 🥴
watching old episodes of kitchen nightmares, as we do, and there's a classic motorola surfboard cable modem in the background of this office and we have such fond memories of that modem, the first time we had broadband at home!
on monday someone we were pretty close to and hadn't spoken to in a few days while we were processing some shit was like "please talk to me about what's going on" so I was vulnerable about having DID and he hasn't responded since.
like you fucking asked, man.
new handle, turns out i have DID and my head's an infinitely more complex place than i could've conceived.
if you care to learn more: https://system.gay