Valentine's fit 💕🥰


Valentine's fit 💕🥰


I have no idea what I want to do for work, where I want to live, who I want to date, or when or where I'll have surgery.
I would love some certainty about something.
just found out my orchi consult that i scheduled six months ago is pushed out another five months and i want to punch a hole in something
i made an alt for nudes and such you can follow if you want
uuugh my estradiol levels were too high (like 443 pg/mL low point too high) and my doctor is definitely going to lower my dose i sob
I will never stop being surprised at people's capacity to misgender me when I know for a fact my gender is on the screen in front of their face
kind of popped off with my makeup today


I look good today and you deserve to see it, tbh

did my third estradiol injection myself 🥰 easiest one yet!
(thanks to @codesink.io for doing the prep stuff—this is the part I struggle with most, for some reason)
trying to threaten nelnet into updating my name for the fourth time, five fucking years after my legal name change let's see if they actually do it this time!
begging youtubers to discover shotgun and boom mics get those condensers out of your goddamn face!!!
estradiol injection attempt one: stabbed the draw needle entirely through my thumb!
maybe I'm not cut out for this!
I DID IT YAY!!!

You'd think if someone has stared at you for like 5 minutes they've seen all they need to see, but apparently not!
listening to this album this morning, figured you all could use something good to listen to:
https://music.apple.com/us/album/sword-songs/1299788630
https://open.spotify.com/album/0ALDp8P3C4ekHtBd7ze49K
https://twostepsonthewater.bandcamp.com/album/sword-songs

i honestly didn't expect to be this sad about having no plans on thanksgiving, i didn't for many years in california. being this close to my family and knowing that i can't be with them for very valid reasons is hard though.
the sound of my dishwasher running after being broken for the last two months is so good 😍😭🥳
hadn't had a stuck in bed depression day since starting meds and i guess it's fun to know that's still a thing i guess
the turtleneck on this dress is legitimately obnoxious but i look good so

I've been on this antidepressant for a month now and overall the effects have been great, but i've had terrible nightmares nearly every night. is it worth it? unclear, it is getting old.
subspace will solve all your problems