notes

you can't pour from an empty cup

ours: broken in shards attempt after attempt to mend failing

unable to hold anything good

toxicity stays stuck tar staining personalities

we don't even know yet

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people are so fucking normal to us (also our MOM beat us thank you very much)

love eating an entire box of shells and cheese for dinner we will certainly not regret eating an entire box of shells and cheese for dinner

rewatching bar rescue because i lack self-respect and need mindless entertaininment

today was a lot better, group therapy was good. still no luck finding a new individual therapist though, keep getting really dismissive and discouraging responses from the therapists i reach out to 😔

let people talk about their experiences without having to provide a million disclaimers in the service of “nuance” like it’s some inherent moral good challenge

have such a headache today, probably bc we forgot our anxiety meds before bed and also logged 25 switches yesterday 🥴

fuck ass brain

WTHelly

i wish we got diagnosed with DID earlier bc i didn’t get any say in our transition care, and don’t love this body. but the others all like it so i just get to be unhappy and that sucks.

don’t know that anything would’ve changed, but i would feel better being involved in the decision-making?

real existential dread hours

pro tip: if you forget your anxiety meds you may spend all afternoon spiraling, not that we'd know 🙃

why does every therapeutic modality ever have a little disclaimer that's like "probably is harmful in individuals with DID" it's so annoying

when subtitles say "[speaking spanish]" instead of just fucking transcribing what was said in spanish it pisses me off so much!!

monogamous people complain about their dating lives without implying polyam people are the problem challenge

we're home from our mental health program for the weekend and oh my god we missed our bidet SO much lmao

it's fucking great that apple wouldn't accept my drivers license for identity verification for a developer account and instead i had to use my fucking passport that says im a fucking man

my sex is N/A

honestly feeling like we're starting to make real progress in our mental health program, noticing us handling things better and easier? it's really encouraging and we're oddly proud of ourselves.