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how fast do y'all type? ;3 this is on our MacBook keyboard lol

we're not hyperfixating you're hyperfixating

i’m so sorry to speak this into the universe but like… they’re going to send the IRS after queer-focused 501(c)3s right? Like retroactively stripping nonprofit status? I’ve reached out to some ED friends to see if they’re planning for this… and they’re not??

we’re almost certainly privileged enough for it not to matter but that executive order hitting as our mental health is the worst it’s been in a long time, and right as we’re about to meet with our psychiatrist to add DID to our chart (we have reasons) is scary!! genuinely frightening.

we need a new therapist so badly she is not at all versed in DID and keeps trying to use IFS concepts with us and it's so counterproductive honestly, but we're moving so soon and no one will respond to us ugh

we grabbed a copy of Emma Grove's "The Third Person" today and read it in a marathon 3 hour session, holy fuck was it good. Now to spiral a little and process some things lol

exceptionally bad brain day bweh

today's fit is this adorable new cluey shirt i got 🥰

"are you a puppy girl because you have arf arf ARFID?" - our wife 🤦🏼‍♀️

the ever-lovely @olivia.ky got us this gorgeous hoodie and BINGO EARS today 🥰 i feel so freaking cute aaaa

just remembering the time last year that i got drugged at a bar by a creep, and then the next morning went to the ER after making it home safely because I was very unwell – they told me i just drank too much and when there was THC in my blood put "Marijuana Abuse" on my chart and did nothing 🙃

cut most of our hair off today, love it soooo much 🥰

why is cigna sending me a push notification every 15 minutes this morning saying “you’re due for a healthcare visit” what do they know that i don’t

so lazy today, but managed to do a little makeup for the first time in a while and felt cute 🥰

thinking about how my mom told me i wasn’t autistic when i talked to her about wanting to get diagnosed

“mom, i was nonverbal until i was like 6” “yeah but that has nothing to do with autism!”

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good morning other mentally ill people in my phone

we enabled (privacy friendly, server-side) analytics on https://system.gay and uhhhhhh that's a lot more people than we expected to be reading about us lol

sobbing because we came out as plural to a discord full of friends and they're all reading our website and encouraging us to discern who's fronting in conversation and showing curiosity and it's so fucking nice 🥺😭

who else looks forward to their afternoon buspirone dose every day i love feeling happy again

a vase, shattered early in creation shards too complex to coalesce

a perpetual unknown

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