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Zari
(they/she)
it's so cool having a mental illness that every therapist ever is unable to treat because they literally just don't teach them about it, so fun 🙃
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small posts and threadsa genuinely startling number of people use our silly little chrome os update tracking website we made on a whim 6 years ago
billion dollar idea: tanning beds but IPL
we’re nonbinary, a transsexual woman, and a transgender man and if you really think about the implications of those labels you can learn a lot about us.
being trans is NOT about being miserable all the time, as much as many online communities want you to think that.
log off, wear the clothes, try the pronouns, get a haircut, buy a binder, live your fucking life!!!
everything in life has risk, not self-actualizing has more than most things.
i did something dumb i probably won't use it my domain is too good
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Zari
(they/she)
my mom would always use cutsie words like “SO” and “lover” for my wife because acknowledging that i was in a queer relationship would make her spontaneously combust.
can’t believe i accepted that disrespect. well i can, i let her misgender and deadname me for 7 years, lmao
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Zari
(they/she)
always fun to be honest in response to “hey, how have you been?” and then see someone get quiet because they don’t know how to interact with someone suffering lmao
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Ethan
(he/him)
getting real tired of the people who are obviously just too weak to step up and transition and assert themselves making it everyone else’s fucking problem.
every single one of us has the same concerns and we FUCKING DID IT ANYWAY.
like inject the hormones, wear the clothes, or shut up damn
like, did it cost us our relationship with our entire family? yes.
have we spent time homeless couch surfing to survive? yes.
are we so much fucking happier than we would’ve be been otherwise? GOD YES
turns out not hating yourself every day makes most things easier to handle.
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Ethan
(he/him)
so we had an appointment with our psychiatrist yesterday, in which we were quite vulnerable about how poorly we've been doing lately and the severe dissociative episode we had sunday night, and she felt (and we agree) that things are serious enough we need intensive care.
so next tuesday, we're going to a 3 week outpatient program in nashville. group therapy, individual therapy, and psychiatry appointments from 9am - 4pm monday - friday for most of the month of august.
we're... pretty fucking scared? a bit excited? really embarrassed it's come to this?
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Ethan
(he/him)
apple revive the 12 inch macbook with apple silicon you fucking cowards
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Zari
(they/she)
remembering the time that an elementary school teacher told us "you really need to move to california, san francisco is the place for you"
...you really could've just called me a slur honestly? lol
if your phone isn’t orientation locked to portrait like 99% of the time just know i see you and i’m judging you
envious of trains having a track, just moving forward
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Zari
(they/she)
shout out the therapist that blocked me after replying to my message and shoutout to the telehealth platform for emailing me pressuring me to book with the therapist that blocked me
it's actually so cool that my brain is so fucked up no one wants to help me
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Zari
(they/she)
after last night it’s just been me in front and headspace is completely empty no matter how much i call out for anyone else i am very worried about what is going on
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Zari
(they/she)
went to look for an insurance document from last year and yeeeesh 🥴
fuck my dumb plural life tbh
my dumb ass: i’m doing so good mentally also my dumb ass: wakes up a half mile from my house walking barefoot in pajamas at 4am
i’m home my feet hurt i don’t know who i am
sobriety is so good for you but it’s so fucking boring i have to fill my time with real activities now what the fuck do you meannn