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Zari
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Just had an original Hue bulb fail that we bought in like, 2014-2015? Impressive lifespan, given how much we leave our lights on.
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Zari
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sometimes we'd like to sit down with the first psychiatrist we ever met with back when we lived in San Francisco and scream "LOOK AT THIS LIST OF DIAGNOSES!!! LOOK!!"
he said we did not have ADHD and had "no signs of depression" and uh... that's the really boring part of what's going on up here
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Zari
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sort of wild that we had three gender-affirming surgeries without spending a single night in a hospital lol
we have never once managed to get Personal Voice to actually transfer across Apple devices and have to set it up each time and the fact it's not consistent is troublesome to our brain
gender affirming sensory deprivation tank is this anything
our kingdom for an alter that's a mature, well-adjusted, minimally-traumatized adult 🥴
watching old episodes of kitchen nightmares, as we do, and there's a classic motorola surfboard cable modem in the background of this office and we have such fond memories of that modem, the first time we had broadband at home!
on monday someone we were pretty close to and hadn't spoken to in a few days while we were processing some shit was like "please talk to me about what's going on" so I was vulnerable about having DID and he hasn't responded since.
like you fucking asked, man.
new handle, turns out i have DID and my head's an infinitely more complex place than i could've conceived.
if you care to learn more: https://system.gay
pc gaming is so stupid what do you mean my windows 11 is so old i have to do a clean install ??? it’s been like 4 months?
the “i want to play a game” to “i am too tired to play a game after trying to make my computer work” pipeline
i love that we as a society collectively forgot out to build user interfaces in anything other than react so now i can’t trust any application i use because UI state never gets updated properly until you interact with the component
staring at you, Discord iOS.
shout-out to the pharmacist who saw my comment of "i don't care if insurance covers it, i just want it" on my estradiol refill and clocked what was going on and filled it within the hour lol
sucks having all the joy pulled out of a new part of myself to the point i wish i’d never discovered it in the first place
i wish i had figured out so much about myself earlier in life, when i still had a chance to build a life around it.
now it feels like things are out of my hands, and i just have to adapt and work with what i have.
it’s sad that we live in a society where i sometimes am thankful that i was diagnosed with my disabilities as an adult… because of how poorly we treat disabled kids.
certainly in the early 2000’s things were worse so like, did the gifted kid burnout path ultimately traumatize me less? dunno!
i think regardless knowing i was autistic before my 30s would’ve been cool, explains a lot actually.
i know "i bought AirPods Pro and it's enabled me to manage my sensory overwhelm so much better that I am more productive than i've been in a long time" feels a little dramatic, but like, it's true!
tired of having to uproot my entire life repeatedly to go somewhere safer.
i suppose it’s my fault for ever moving back home, but like, heaven forbid i want to live where i’m from. i do actually like it here a lot.
we really ruined online communication when we moved beyond “email me and i’ll respond whenever the fuck i feel like it”
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everything feels so damn existential lately i am exhausted