how is anyone managing to keep up with basic household tasks right now, much less a job, friendships, hobbies, long-term planning?
i’m just stuck in perpetual despair.
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small posts and threadsthere is like a 30% chance i am jumpscared by my own naked body any time i open a random app and it's getting annoying lmfao
okay now that my heart health is squared away, time for our regularly scheduled despair over not having people in my life that genuinely love and accept me and instead judge and shame me into who they want me to be
i spent today in the ER (I’m okay! Just being very cautious about a suspect EKG) and god it was exhausting being repeatedly asked for my pronouns, and misgendered anyway.
My primary care doctor who literally only sees trans patients called me “himself” in clinical notes today.
Fuck.
it’s honestly remarkable how i’ve managed to never have a single person in my life who can just accept me for who i am and i’m always having to minimize or hide parts of myself in order to be acceptable
“doing well” and “taking care of yourself” are too much work i would like to lay in bed and be stoned and depressed and rot thank you
i cried more today than i have in so many years. i am physically exhausted and dehydrated from sobbing.
getting grindr ads for my bottom surgeon is always a weird experience 🤭
whoever in my brain has decided we’re having nightmares about losing HRT needs to fucking stop 🫠
i may mentally be doing the worst i have in a long time, but i wake up every day in a body that i am so happy with and that has to count for something
knowing i fucked up a relationship is the worst — nothing more i can to do repair that damage and trauma.
it’s been years and still i lay in bed thinking about how we’d be together, if not for my mistakes. how much i miss them still.
how i wasn’t ready then but i am now, when it’s too late.
coping with everything by exploring increasingly severe kinks
spreading the word about gender nullification surgery by letting anyone eat me out
transsexual lesbianism 👍🏻
i spend too much time alone and the only people that show interest in me want to fuck me and nothing else so my self-worth is thriving
aaAaAAAaaa
anyone know how too not feel like i'm bragging by expressing joy about my body and appearance bc it sucks to feel bad for feeling good !!
i don’t know what snapchat suggesting I add “NYC DOM DADDY 4 TWINKS” means, but I don’t think it’s anything good
you've heard of putting needles in yourself (medical), now introducing putting needles in yourself (horny)!
reactivated my nsfw account, immediately got marked as spam, meanwhile porn bots can overrun the site and no one cares 😵💫