cold brew and an ensure shake: the breakfast of champions
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small posts and threadsstarting to really settle in that i don’t have a penis anymore and i’m so happy ☺️
My bottom surgery went great!! Back home at my Airbnb recovering. I can walk around pretty easily, feeling better than I would've expected.
update the pain has arrived this shit sucks lmao
tragically, i really like austin 😅 now to spend the rest of my time here in this house recovering from surgery.
16 hours to go!
in austin for bottom surgery on tuesday i am beyond hype ‼️😤
“insecure enbies” really pissed me off too like what you think we’re all just going to up and be binary trannies if you bully us enough?
i have a very secure concept of who i am! that includes a lot of medical transition! it’s so fine if you don’t! we have a lot of kinship and shared experience!
i’ve been doing this shit for toooooooooo long y’all were doing this discourse a decade ago and you’ll be doing it a decade from now and meanwhile the vast majority of us will be living our lives offline—turns out people won’t say freak shit like this to your face!
technically my psychiatrist calls me an “AMAB feminine leaning nonbinary individual” maybe we should try that one on 🫠
i am feminine-leaning in that i look like the woman i am yes
i don’t want to wade into discourse but i’m a nonbinary person about to have my third gender-affirming surgery this year why are people trying to get people who medically transition and nonbinary people to fight like we’re not the same fucking people i’m literally having nonbinary bottom surgery
tbh feeling perpetually unrepresented by all of the people yapping about this bc i think my existence disproves all of their arguments about there being actual delineation of identities this shit is fluid as hell baybee
20 days until bottom surgery ayyy i’m too hype
also since i’m talking about gender shit so much—i’m having gender nullification surgery. my body will be mine and explicitly nonbinary and not have genitals i don’t feel an connection to. i’m thrilled.
i get really envious when i see kids with expansive food tastes, because i never was exposed to new foods as a kid and trying new things is hard for me as an adult with sensory and appetite problems 😔
feels like there was a window where i was more open to experimentation and it’s mostly passed.
RCS on iPhone is soooo good it’s about damn time they implemented it
i got COVID and DTaP boosters this week and i am sore and my arm is angry
also peep the FFS results 😜 i love my nose so much!! and i can breathe better—who knew i had a deviated septum!
realized i’ve been no-contact with my family for a year now. it’s been really good for me, but definitely contributed to feeling lonely. need to put more work into building community instead!
new face new hair same dumb bitch
i am going to ev convert a pontiac aztek and there’s nothing you can do to stop me
today is when my post-op should’ve been, but it’s tomorrow. i didn’t think anything of this initially, but right now i would give anything to be getting all this off my face in 7 hours instead of 31.
also like my jaw and mouth are still so fuckin swollen 😩🫠 aaaaaa
my copy of @victoriascott.bsky.social’s “We Deserve This” got delivered the day of my FFS and so I haven’t gotten to look at it (can’t wear my glasses really) but it felt very appropriate and special still.
cannot wait to peruse!
i hate feeling like a constant nuisance and like no one wants to talk to me. i think i can just only talk about surgery and it’s not fun for people, idk
love internalizing you don’t really have friends anymore, just loose acquaintances you catch up with every couple years
i read the detailed surgical report and now my brain is obsessed with how my forehead was deadass removed from my head, flattened, and screwed back in. medical science is metal—literally.
i had ffs yesterday! it went wonderfully, and healing is smooth so far. 🥰 i can already tell i’m going to be so happy with the results!