tuesday will be three weeks post-op and sitting is still decently uncomfortable so i spend most of my time laying in bed and mentally it is taking a toll on me!!
like the physical pain has sucked but this boredom and cabin fever is worse!
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small posts and threadsnot having genitals šš
healing from not having genitals šš
slept on my side some last night for the first time since surgery which was so nice, but damn did it make me bleed a ton so we wonāt be doing that for a bit longer š«
sometimes i wake up and iām in a bad mood for no reason and then im likeāAh! Yes! Take your meds!!āthen i feel fine.
having some wild phantom sensations after bottom surgery šµāš«
peeing with my newly located urethra isā¦ interesting so far! not at all unlike a fire sprinkler š
cold brew and an ensure shake: the breakfast of champions
starting to really settle in that i donāt have a penis anymore and iām so happy āŗļø
My bottom surgery went great!! Back home at my Airbnb recovering. I can walk around pretty easily, feeling better than I would've expected.
update the pain has arrived this shit sucks lmao
tragically, i really like austin š now to spend the rest of my time here in this house recovering from surgery.
16 hours to go!
in austin for bottom surgery on tuesday i am beyond hype ā¼ļøš¤
āinsecure enbiesā really pissed me off too like what you think weāre all just going to up and be binary trannies if you bully us enough?
i have a very secure concept of who i am! that includes a lot of medical transition! itās so fine if you donāt! we have a lot of kinship and shared experience!
iāve been doing this shit for toooooooooo long yāall were doing this discourse a decade ago and youāll be doing it a decade from now and meanwhile the vast majority of us will be living our lives offlineāturns out people wonāt say freak shit like this to your face!
technically my psychiatrist calls me an āAMAB feminine leaning nonbinary individualā maybe we should try that one on š«
i am feminine-leaning in that i look like the woman i am yes
i donāt want to wade into discourse but iām a nonbinary person about to have my third gender-affirming surgery this year why are people trying to get people who medically transition and nonbinary people to fight like weāre not the same fucking people iām literally having nonbinary bottom surgery
tbh feeling perpetually unrepresented by all of the people yapping about this bc i think my existence disproves all of their arguments about there being actual delineation of identities this shit is fluid as hell baybee
20 days until bottom surgery ayyy iām too hype
also since iām talking about gender shit so muchāiām having gender nullification surgery. my body will be mine and explicitly nonbinary and not have genitals i donāt feel an connection to. iām thrilled.
i get really envious when i see kids with expansive food tastes, because i never was exposed to new foods as a kid and trying new things is hard for me as an adult with sensory and appetite problems š
feels like there was a window where i was more open to experimentation and itās mostly passed.
RCS on iPhone is soooo good itās about damn time they implemented it
i got COVID and DTaP boosters this week and i am sore and my arm is angry
also peep the FFS results š i love my nose so much!! and i can breathe betterāwho knew i had a deviated septum!
realized iāve been no-contact with my family for a year now. itās been really good for me, but definitely contributed to feeling lonely. need to put more work into building community instead!
new face new hair same dumb bitch
