notes

did my third estradiol injection myself 🥰 easiest one yet!

(thanks to @codesink.io for doing the prep stuff—this is the part I struggle with most, for some reason)

trying to threaten nelnet into updating my name for the fourth time, five fucking years after my legal name change let's see if they actually do it this time!

begging youtubers to discover shotgun and boom mics get those condensers out of your goddamn face!!!

You'd think if someone has stared at you for like 5 minutes they've seen all they need to see, but apparently not!

listening to this album this morning, figured you all could use something good to listen to:

https://music.apple.com/us/album/sword-songs/1299788630

https://open.spotify.com/album/0ALDp8P3C4ekHtBd7ze49K

https://twostepsonthewater.bandcamp.com/album/sword-songs

i honestly didn't expect to be this sad about having no plans on thanksgiving, i didn't for many years in california. being this close to my family and knowing that i can't be with them for very valid reasons is hard though.

the sound of my dishwasher running after being broken for the last two months is so good 😍😭🥳

hadn't had a stuck in bed depression day since starting meds and i guess it's fun to know that's still a thing i guess

the turtleneck on this dress is legitimately obnoxious but i look good so

I've been on this antidepressant for a month now and overall the effects have been great, but i've had terrible nightmares nearly every night. is it worth it? unclear, it is getting old.

subspace will solve all your problems

i really need keyword filtering to enjoy scrolling here more tbh it is still very unhelpful to see people talking about weed when i'm trying to stay sober from it tbh

I'll never understand why damn near everyone I talk to leaves me on read so much. I'd rather not have read receipts and just not know that they neglected to respond for 6 hours

my wife is out on a date and i ate an entire frozen pizza i think we're both thriving tonight

had a random pastor walk up to me at starbucks and start verbally accosting me about the "transgender lifestyle" and how god doesn't like it, and i started screaming "FUCK OFF GO AWAY" in his face

everyone in the shop started staring at me and i ran out sobbing i am so embarrassed

i hate mint so much why does estradiol have to be so fucking minty

between a natural gas leak in my house and a breakup going so, so, unbelievably poorly i am SO done with this monday. fuck.

got my hair done feeling fresh and cute and stuff ☺️

there's someone at my gym that comes at similar times to me that just spends half his time working out staring at me, and like I get that I'm hot, but geez.