notes

just been me for like two weeks basically it’s getting old, hate singletmoding

cacique guaro 👍🏻

a girl who is sometimes a boy who has neither a penis or a vagina

hi

got our first parking ticket 🤭 it was $19 and easily paid via an app, could be worse hah

i’ve run my head into this shelf in our apartment three times and it’s been less than 24 hours help white on white decor is going to kill me literally

tentatively back, no longer in the united states thank fucking god

landed in costa rica, on my way to our airbnb!! so excited to settle (and nap. i got 4 hours of sleep and have been up since 2:30am woof)

at our gate waiting to board! gonna be a long travel day but i’m so excited to get to costa rica!

house is completely empty and locked up, off to Chicago for our flight in the early morning. had a good cry about it all, i will miss our home so much.

i don’t know that homeownership will be a thing that happens for us again, and the stability was so nice and rare.

also notably we haven’t sold the house yet, so that’s stressful.

sold our car today 😭 gonna miss her so much. house is basically empty, it’s all so sad.

realizing i have to return my Embr Wave that I subscribe to and pay full price for one – when I’ve more than paid for one in monthly fees hurts a bit heh

i’m not not having a mental breakdown? i’m physically nauseous from the perpetual anxiety of moving, and keep dissociating and being unable to focus on getting anything done ugh.

i miss therapy but genuinely could not justify the cost anymore 😔

i am now at a place where i keep Signal, iMessage, and WhatsApp open on my computer and gosh is that annoying as hell

So much cleaning got done today! Really starting to settle in that this is actually happening like, soon. Extremely mixed feelings about it, if I’m honest.

having DID is fucking wild because i just found a half hour long voice note from last night where four of us fronted and you can literally hear different voices for each of us and it’s so obvious when we switch and i have no memory of any of it

posted our gaming computer and accessories on facebook marketplace to get rid of them 😭 people are so cheap even though i priced everything sooooo affordably. they’re good deals!!

traffic today was so awful, and there was a train stopped on the tracks making it challenging to cross town to get home. so frustrating!!

A week from today we’ll be in Costa Rica. That’s wild to think about — and also horrifying because there is still sooooo much to do. We’ll get it done though! 😅

traveled to costa rica on bumble ahead of our move next week (!!) and omg so many hot people help me